cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-11T19:49:00

2004-10-11T23:36:51Z

Ok. I've got 450 calories per meal with 3 meals.

Should I do that OR do 3 meals of 400 calories a meal with 3 50 calorie snacks between?

I think I'm gonna go with the snacks. Hrrm.

I usually eat around 6:30 AM, 1 PM and then 6 PM...I'm in school so I can't change the fact that I eat at one. If it were my choice It'd be 12. But oh well.

Any good 50 calorie snacks that I could store in my locker and eat between my 3rd and 4th period classes?

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-10T18:11:00

2004-10-10T22:01:15Z

I feel SO fucking fat. I started out good today with 6 mini rice cakes, thats 60 calories and no fat. From there it just got worse. I saw tacos in the fridge and had 3 of those. Chips. Spagettios. I need to stop eating for my emotions. Tomorrow I'm determined. I'm only eating rice cakes and an apple. Lots of water.

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-10T16:38:00

2004-10-10T20:26:18Z

1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: Eyes
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: sure, but not just because she's a woman.
3. Would you marry for money?: no
4. Have you had braces?: No
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: no my mom does
6. Do you ever cut or hurt yourself?: hahahahahaha.
7. When was the last time you had a hickey?: i dont even want to think about it
8. Could you live without a computer?: no
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc..?: AIM/AOL
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: not that many :(
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?: hmmm that's hard. im not sure
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: barefoot. I never understood why people wear shoes in the house.
14. What is your favorite fruit?: pears and apples
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: i like wheat but no one ever buys it for me
16. What is your favorite place to visit?: i dont know.
17. What is the last movie you saw?: dunno
18. Do you kiss on the first date?: depends
19. Are you photogenic?: i dont know.
20. Do you dream in color or black and white?: colour
21. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: yes, grey
22. Do you have any dimples?: Np
23. Do you remember being born?: No....
24. Why do you take surveys?: When I'm bored
25. Do you drink alcohol?: sometimes.
26. Did you like or do you like high school?: i hate it
27. What is the most beautiful language?: the kind that isnt spoken, the language where you just look at someone and they know what you're "saying"
28. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake?: it actually scares the shit out of me. Its very sweet but its a bit frightening to wake up with a face a centimeter from yours.
29. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Sunsets
30. Do you want to live to be 100?: Yes
31. Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair?: No
32. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most?: cant choose
33. Is a flat stomach important to you?: on me, yes
34. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: yes, it was fun
35. Are you loyal?: yes
36. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?: yes
37. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: i like them off. for many reasons. it helps you ignore everything else except the movie. and plus if you're watching with your crush its easy to start making out during the boring parts.
38. Do you believe in magic?: not sure
39. Do you have nightmares frequently?: no
40. Do you like your nose?: No
41. Do you like abstract art?: sometimes
42. Do you think you can draw well? no
43. Do you listen to music daily?: I have to
44. Do you like to watch cartoons?: yes
45. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: 10
46. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: none. i dont have anything in my closet acutally
47. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: mostly my converses
48. Do you write poetry?: yes
49. Do you snore?: i dunno
50. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: Side
51. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?: rottweiler, poodles are annoying
52. Do you lick stamps?: when i have to
53. Do you use an electric can opener?: No
54. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: No.
55. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: Emotional.
56. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?: yes
57. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: Yes
58. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: cant pick
59. Are you a sex addict?: probably. it's irritating. once you have it you don't want to stop. waiting till you're married to have sex is a good thing. then you can have it whenever you want without worrying or feeling guilty.
60. Do you know someone who has cancer?: i did. </3 61. Do you hunt?: No 62. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: neither 63. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: museum 64. Do you have a middle name?: ann 65. Are you basically a happy person?: No 66. Are you tired?: more lazy... 67. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: Not yet 68. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: yep 69. How many phones do you have in your house? 4 70. How long is your hair?: almost to my shoulders 71. Do you get along with your parents?: I get along with my mum extremely well 99% of the time, I hate my dad so no i dont get along with him. 72. What color of eyes do you prefer?: doesnt matter 73. Are you an active person?: eh not really 74. What medications do you take?: motrin, tylenol, paxil, zyrtec 75. What does your bedroom look like?: empty

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-10T15:45:00

2004-10-10T19:33:00Z

I'd kill for that.

Anyway. Welcome to my journal. I'm on a mission to get thin, toned and healthy. I want thinner thighs, a flat belly, toned arms...I guess I want it all. I want to finally feel good about myself. This is my journal to document this all and to help me achieve my goal. Incase any of you were curious, at the current here is my plan:

1800 calories per day.

450 calories per meal

3 meals a day

Exercise 30 to 45 minutes 3 times a week, stretch everyday.

Current weight: 145
Ideal Weight: 115
Short term goal: 138 by November 1st

cadaverous please

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-11T19:49:00

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-10T18:11:00

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-10T16:38:00

cadaverous_me @ 2004-10-10T15:45:00